Hello, dear reader. I know it has been a while. I sit here, watching the snow fall on Christmas Eve and am reflecting on this past year. I have grown and learned so much about quality assurance and software testing. I have met many people who have been open and willing to teach me about not only QA but career development. I will never be able to show my appreciation for those who have helped me through my internship. As my internship is reaching its one year mark, I have chosen to take the next step and have accepted a full time QA Analyst position at a different company. I will miss everyone I have worked with this past year.
As this new adventure approaches, I have been experiencing only what I have heard about from others, Impostor Syndrome. My background in psychology hasn't prepared me for these feelings of not being prepared or good enough to perform for this new position. I wonder if maybe the hiring manager has made a mistake and they will realize it soon. If I allow myself to fall deeper into these thought swirls, I become dizzy. My hands are clammy. I can't see straight. But I know that I am a hard worker and that even if I'm not completely ready, I have the drive to take everything one step at a time. I am still a QA Newbie but I am miles ahead of when I first started a year ago.
I hope that you, reader, never feel the pang of anxiety and question your own worth but if you do, I want you to know that you aren't alone. We all experience it in a different way but we all have our doubts. It is okay and if it isn't now, it will be soon. Take care of yourselves.
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays.
